When Questioning Life

Some people can analyze their lives, pick through the moments and sort out which made an impact. They can figure out where they made a detour, and how to re route. I'm not one of those people ... I don't even know if I believe you can sort out your future, much less sort it out by looking backwards.

I was sitting at the kitchen window sipping my coffee and listening to the windchimes and I realized that some people turn their lives around, and some people don't. Some people know where it all went wrong and still can't change their trajectory. Some people know where it all went wrong and can change the outcome. Some don't know where it went wrong and somehow things change for the better. There doesn't seem to be any set way - no ten easy steps for everybody.

As I was sitting at the kitchen window sipping my coffee, trying to pick through the moments, trying to sort it out I wondered: Maybe my life is more like the wind, does anyone know where the wind begins?

-Sophie Robertson

RE Quest ... ing

I am in the midst
blowing in the wind
between dark shadows that cast sharp lines
and
blinding obliterating light.

I hope I land gently
as soft as these velvet breezes today.

Perhaps this journey will bring me home
quickly.

-Sophie Robertson

Walking the Camino

Recently I have been longing to go to France and Spain to walk the Camino De Santiago. It is a pilgrimage that stretches 560KMs from the french Pyrenees border to Santiago de Compostela. I've read tons of personal accounts from travellers and one of the stories that stuck in my head was a Canadian woman that was walking the pilgrimage and kept noticing little piles of stones along the paths. Finally she asked another traveller and was told that people pick up stones and hold them as they walk along the path. They think about all the things that are weighing them down and then, when they are ready, they place the stone down leaving the burden behind.
I had a flash the other day when I was walking in my neighbourhood - you don't have to walk the actual Camino to experience the Camino. Then all of a sudden little stones appeared on my path.

-Sophie Robertson

I Get Letters ...

... and I read them too! In the spirit of conversation I thought that, this being the first entry of the New Year, I would write about some of the subjects that are on your minds ... of course they're on my mind too. Conversations work so much better when they involve more than one participant.

Changing our reality - YIKES, that's a big one! I was reading my favorite physicist's writing on the subject and he, I think, is on to something. We get so trapped in our day to day lives, our ups and downs, our victories and defeats, and our drama of being whoever we believe we are at the time that we get stuck.

Being truly spiritual in this world is not easy. Connecting to our spirit in this world is not easy. Changing our world in this world is not easy. There are other possibilities for us to choose from in this world - but it requires a leap. Living in a day to day drama filled life is only a phase - much like the terrible two's. Changing our reality requires us to speak with our spirit through feelings. Yes speaking with the spirit about the latest drama certainly will have some effect - but you're still operating from base camp - take the leap, step out of your mundane life and get into the big picture.

I did say YIKES at the beginning of this conversation didn't I? The problem in a day to day life is you are stuck in a problem arises find the solution cycle - sometimes creating solutions before the problem arises thus creating more of a problem.

So, what is the alternative? What is on the other side of the terrible two's phase where we are stuck?

Our inner life creating the world around us.

- Sophie Robertson